backpain

We saw eye to eye
Forehead kisses were our favorites
I loved you in your acne wool
Your wooly mane
Tobacco lingered in the threads
THC lingered in our heads
Your condo was our playground
My condo was our house on the prairie
Our condo was our Venn diagram
You could’ve locked me in your arms forever
Back then
You could’ve held me in your arms forever
Back then
You could’ve almost had me as yours forever
Back then

ying|yang

I could be a conspiracy theorist.

I could say that all of this ongoing chaos is a part of some sick twisted scheme.

I could say that there are powers at be that smile at the injustices in the world.

I could say that there’s always going to be an antagonist.

I could say that there will always be war to fight and a battle to overcome.

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I could say that there will always be love to spread and a future to believe in.

I could say that there’s always going to be a protagonist.

I could say that there are powers in the world that smile at the progressions in the world.

I could say that all of the energy invested in rallying against trends of inequality will help bring about a paradigm shift in the universe.

I could be a dreamer ~

circa 2004

These days, life is like the summer between jr high and high school. I don’t know it all but I’ve seen some things. I’ve grown apart from people. I’ve seen things come to an end. I’ve seen sadness. Creating precious moments that are like deep secrets is a hobby. I’ve built comraderies through shared experiences. Most things inspire me. I am very expressive. I dance often. I kiss my friends. I hold their hands. I want them to feel special. Life is not sexualized. Life is pure. My male friends are my brothers. My female friends are my sisters. I’ve seen happiness. I’ve gotten into trouble. I know life is about choices. I’ve taken some risks. I’ve seen my peers do foolish things for the attention and approval of others. I enjoy inside jokes. I’ve seen the ying and yang in my elders — some bitter, some better. My heart is warm. I like to write notes, lay on my bed naked & listen to music, & give flowers to strangers. I don’t take things too seriously, although I know some of my peers do. They think that’s what the future will demand from them. I’m enjoying breaking the rules, cherishing my friendships, living for my favorite things, and having a good laugh. The tests will always be there.